It was only over time that I began to realise that everything I was experiencing in my life was somehow self created. Yup! That was quite a big piece of wisdom to get my head around but as a years of past I realise that actually indeed what I was experiencing was the effects of a previous cause.
Living that way rendered me powerless. My days seemed like a struggle and there was no doubt I was just in survival mode.
When I started to realise that challenges where an awesome way to make me stronger, wiser and more compassionate – I started to viee challenges in a completely different way. I saw them as an opportunity to "make me". I began to realise it was all in my mind set. And the way that I view the world was the way that I was experiencing the world. I also realised that my view of the world was merely an old pattern and program which no longer served me anymore and any given moment I had the ability to update the program with something that I actually enjoyed experiencing.